Theo Jack Owens (Passed away 7 Jul 2015)

I am sat here alone with you and all your angel friends. It's Saturday 25th July 2015. I have put a few things down to decorate your grave and Auntie Claire bought you an owl sign. The ground is soaking and despite being sat on my coat and 2 carrier bags In have a wet and muddy bottom(so you best be grateful ;-)) I have talked to you lots, cried lots too. It seems so unfair that the only place I can show you is your own grave. I promise to keep it beautiful till the day I can join you. I have sat here watching butterflies chasing eachother and even seen a few squirrels. It is a lovely spot and so quiet. Mummy will love you forever xxx

The day after you were born you were inundated with visitors! Everyone wanted to meet you and cuddle you even if only for a short while. Noone more so than your proud big brother Ryan. He absolutely adored you. He had your whole life planned,how you were going to play trains together and he would share his room with you. He was desperate for you to come home and for everything to be alright. He came bounding in the room so excited to hold you. Over the time he was there he held you 4 times. He looked so proud of you. Mia held you too and Sophie poked you in the nose! You had cuddles from all your 'aunties' Kate, Kirsty, Su, Anna and Emma. The chaplain Steve can back to see us and we had lots of visits from Sisters and doctors who looked after us when I was pregnant. They all wanted to see and hold you. We had lots of cards and gifts we were very lucky. Everyone commented on your nose and how cute it was. The whole day was perfect,full of love, laughter and joy. You made all of us so happy and proud to have held you. That evening it was just me and you. I cried alot! It felt like you were changing. I knew it was time to let you go. At 3am I bathed you alone and put you in a lovely white outfit and wrapped you in a white blanket. I walked you to delivery suite where you needed some tests done and said my goodbyes. I walked back to the ward alone just holding your elephant blanket close. I knew I had done the right thing but it hurt so so much. Again I stayed up all night looking at your pictures and the memories in your box. I had 36 perfect hours with you but oh how I wished it was more xxx

How to say goodbye to a little angel?
How to tell them they meant so much to one family and there friends?
How to be strong when everything seems wrong?
How to help a family Grieve?
How to ease the pain and make new memories?
All things that shouldn't be happening today.....as I wipe my tears away thinking of you dear Theo, shine above us as we show our love and say our goodbyes xxxx

Every baby is cherished and loved and none more so than you Theo Jack. You were born perfect with 10 little fingers, 10 little toes, a cute button nose and a smile on your lips but sadly without the heartbeat that we had all longed and hoped for. Now that you are playing with the angels, look after Mummy, your brother and your sisters Theo Jack: show them that you are always with them in the wonder of nature, in the golden sun warming their skin, in the drops of rain that wet their cheeks, in the rainbow that casts magic across the sky, in the colourful butterflies that flutter by, and in the sparkling of the stars in the night sky. Theo Jack, for such a little man you have made the biggest impression on all whom knew you: sleep well little man and we will carry you forever in our hearts and memories xxx

Amy, he was so very, very special

And was so from the start

You held him in your arms

But mainly in your heart
And like a single drop of rain

That on still waters fall,

His life did ripples make 

And touched the lives of all.
He's gone to play with angels

In heaven up above

So keep your special memories

And treasure them with love
Although your darling son was with you just a while

He'll live on in your heart

With a sweet remembered smile

R.I.P gorgeous baby Theo many the Angels take good care of you ??xx

The world may never notice
If a Snowdrop doesn't bloom,
Or even pause to wonder
If the petals fall too soon.
But every life that ever forms,
Or ever comes to be,
Touches the world in some small way
For all eternity.

Theo,
Just reading your mummy's story shows what a wonderful strong and beautiful mummy you have, and such wonderful family and friends that are there to support her. You will be missed so much we can all see that but your memory will live on forever more. Rest in peace little man x

Rest in peace beautiful boy, forever missed ❤️❤️❤️

On the 7th July 2015 I went to the GWH at 9.30 with your Auntie Claire. I had an amazing midwife called Alison who I instantly liked. I had lots of tests done including 9 tubes of blood taken, and answered lots of questions then the induction began. I couldn't wait to meet you and see your gorgeous face but knew I needed to do the hard bit first. After induction started Auntie Claire and I walked round the hospital grounds, then round the inside, then it was time for lunch. We sat in the courtyard and Auntie Claire ate half of my lunch as well as her own! After we walked some more round and round the courtyard then your Auntie Claire decided to sunbathe! By this time my contractions were every 3 mins. I knew it wouldn't be long till I got to meet you. You were still kicking in my tummy at this point. We went back in and within minutes the contractions were coming thick and fast. I was swiftly rushed to delivery suite and within 5 mins I knew I was ready to push. You decided to come out bottom first and still in your waters! Should have known you were going to make things tricky. My contractions slowed down and I had to work really hard to deliver you, still with no pain relief I might add! At 4.31pm you were delivered. As soon as you were born they put you on my chest. I knew instantly that you had gone but you were the smallest yet most adorable baby I had ever seen. Auntie Claire cut your cord and took lots of pictures. Our lovely midwife Alison was there to deliver you which I was really happy about. A little while after Sarah the pediatrician came in and examined you and listened for a heartbeat. She confirmed what I already knew. I was truly gutted to not have even a few minutes with you to be able to feel your heart beating or your breath on my face. It all confirmed just how poorly you were. Sarah and Alison weighed and measured you and wrote out your cot card. We were all surprised at how big you were. At 1lb 9oz you were only expected to be just 1lb. They bought this gorgeous tiny basket for us to put you in. You looked so peaceful just like you were sleeping. Steve the chaplain then came to bless you. The 4 of us were still there staring at your perfect little features. After a while Sarah and Alison left. Your Auntie Claire had a cuddle with you then she ran me a bath and helped me get cleaned up. The whole time I couldn't let you out of my sight. You even came in the bathroom with me! A while later I was transferred back to the ward and me and Auntie Claire spent the whole night holding you, talking to you, washing and dressing you, even posing you for photos. I didn't want to waste a single second. Although I was devastated by the outcome your birthday was a happy day full of love, kisses and cuddles xxx