Prema Kuruvatti (23 Oct 1953 - 19 Mar 2016)

I miss you, come back

A year ago today, almost to the minute, you left us mummy and died. That last word still seems so unreal in relation to you, but nothing can change the fact that you have been taken from us. Life continues as it always does, but nothing truly eases the pain and sorrow we have in just not having you here, of being a part of each others lives and a constant, comforting presence. But live we must for what other choice is there. I don't think I will be adding any more entries on here, but I plan to keep sending you letters and birthday cards. You will always be with me mummy, always. And though death has taken you physically, it will not stop the relationship that we will still have. We still have time.....it will just be different. I love you so much mummy and miss you so much. Forever your loving son, Papu.

A year ago tomorrow, you were leaving the hospital to go into the hospice. This would be your last journey. After all the other journeys you made across the globe, crossing continents, this would be your last. This last phase of your life will always be a sad memory but it reminds me of the last few, precious days we all had together. I love you mummy.

Dearest aunty merry Christmas. Even though you are not here you are always in my thoughts. I wish you were here to celebrate, we all miss you very much especially mum. You were and always will be in our hearts forever.

You are in my thoughts every day mummy. We all miss you so much. It is not fair, but we have no choice but to try and carry on with our lives and make them ones that you would have been proud of. We will always feel the love and caring that you have us, always.

Dear mummy,
It would have been your birthday last week- 63- you should have been there for it. We remembered and cherished you on the 21st and celebrated your life. Today is Diwali and another celebration that you will miss with us all. We all miss you so much mummy. You are always in our thoughts and in our hearts. Love you mummy.

Mummy it is 6 months today since you left us all. We are all still so sad and time does little to ease the pain. Just miss you so much and can't believe you have gone. Just not real. I am going to get lots of Cheerfulness daffodils to plant in the garden for the Spring to make us both happy and sad. Love you mummy.

Prema, It's nearly 5 months. Can't believe. Going to see Chandranna Soon. Memories linger of having good times in Pinxton house.

We all miss you so much. You have gone but you are still very much with us all. You always will be. Love you mummy.

Mummy I can't believe that almost 3 months have passed since you left us all. I still can't believe that you are gone. I miss you. Tomorrow is my birthday and it will be 39 years from the day when you brought me into this world. You should have been here for more family birthdays. I'll miss you tomorrow more than usual.

I still can't believe that you're gone, it's been just over a month and it still feels completely and utterly surreal. Things will be normal and then all of a sudden it creeps up on me and hits me like a truck, the fact that you are gone and will never come back. Truthfully, it's infuriating. Why did you die when there are so many others on this earth who don't deserve to be here like you do? I know you wouldn't want me (or anybody) to think that but it's something I can't ignore. Love You forever and always.

Aunty, we will always miss you..have so many fond memories of you..my first grand baby shower..and so many thoughtful things.that you did ..still can't believe that you are no more. UK will never be the same for us without you. We probably didn't meet as much as we wanted but I always had all your support just a phone call away. Thank you so much for everything..may you rest in peace and we will always miss you..Minal, Nikhil and family

I'll miss you Ajji, hopefully it will get easier with time but your loss will always hurt and we will never forget you. Love you...