The past month since your funeral has been really difficult with out you. I had so many things I wanted to express or say at the funeral but did not have the words, here a month on I still cannot convey my feelings how I want but I do feel ready to say goodbye.
As a child you and granddad always had a place where I felt safe and listened to; to me that was the only place I felt secure and I shall always be indebted to you for providing that shelter to me.
When Granddad died you called me your rock and in the months after I tried to do my best by taking you to and from Dominos and doing what I can. When I left Peterborough to go to London I knew it would be difficult for you but I think for my own sanity I had to escape Peterborough, I was not in a good place then and I needed to start afresh - you understood but I still felt guilty.
When Tilly was born and we were back in Peterborough you were my rock, Sabine and I found parenthood difficult at the start with no other family around, but your help and guidance really helped us and we are both thankful for that, Tilly was really taken with you ad she misses you greatly to this day. It really pleased me that you got to know Tilly a little, she represents the best of me and the lessons I learned from you and Granddad are thought of every day when I am with her. I will make sure she always feel safe, secure and listened to.
The world is a lot emptier for me without both you and Granddad, it makes me happy to know you are together again, though I miss you every day.
See you later Alligator :)
All my love, Mark