Susan Bashford (9 Feb 1955 - 18 Aug 2016)

A bitter sweet day today. Sending a huge Happy birthday to my baby sister (28 today) and a missing you so much mum (4 years today also)

It will always be a day to remember my mum, to miss my mum and to grieve for my mum. But I also have to put on a happy face in order for my beautiful wonderful sister to have a wonderful birthday too. So here’s to you mum. Shine down on your baby girl on her birthday. Keep smiling down on us all. We love and miss you dearly xx 😘

Its been just over a year mum. And it still hurts to know your not with us. I miss you so much. Every morning your the first person i think of and every night the last person i wish i could say good night too. I miss the most our chats on the phone (about 6 times a day) i miss not seeing your name come up on my phone when you finally realised you could drop call me so you didnt use up your credit! Sophie talks about you often and looks at your photos. Shes what keep us going i guess. Your baby boy josh is still finding thing difficult. Just everyday life is a bit harder for him with out you and finds it more difficult to go down to see grandad without you being there. I know time is a healer but when does it heal? When does it actually feel like its fetting easier? I could write in here all day as though speaking to you, makes it feel a bit more like your here, like im having a conversation with you. I love you always mum. Shine down on us. Keep smiling and laughing as you always did ?❤️❤️❤️❤️ Xxx

Donation from Elaine Chris and family

Donation in memory of Susan by Elaine Chris and family

Mum loosing you was the hardest day of my life. I felt all the air and feeling leave my body as I saw you gain your wings and leave me. You was suffering and in so much pain but the amazing and strong women you are you kept fighting..you kept going to defeat all objects that stopped you being with us you showed who was the boss. Mum that day I will never forget, I understand you needed to go as you was so tierd of being in pain..your mind and the love of your heart wasn't ready but your body was... Know that I never hold it against you I only wish I could of heard you say you love me one more time and give me our cuddles we always had. Mum you was my world, my everything ,my best friend I don't know how I'm going to cope without you as I feel I can't cope now at all. It was too soon too quick I feel no matter how much time it would of never been enough as I wanted you for forever. I love you so much mum.. I hope everything I did was the best it could be for you as all I ever wanted was for you to be happy and comfortable. You was the best mum I could ever have been blessed with, I'm so proud of you and proud to be your daughter you was so strong. I'll never forget all the bear cuddles we used to have, laughing so much at little things, tiggled me to sleep so I would go off ok and sing me our lullaby, the times when I would say I don't want to go work today and you'd say ' don't go then.. Stay at home then baby girl', always reassuring me when I'm down that everything will be okay in the end.. you made everything okay and I'm so scared to be here without you, you shaped me to be who I am now and I can only hope to be as an amazing women, wife and mother you was. You will always be remembered everyday and every night, I know when I have my children I will make sure they know how amazing, beautiful and loving there grandma was to keep you alive to them. I promise to look after dad for you. I know now your pain free and hugging grandma and grandad so tight right now as that's all you have ever wanted.. Give them a big kiss from me and I'll see you soon. I love you so much mummy your baby girl and always will be EllaLouise ????❤️❤️❤️??

Mum loosing you was the hardest day of my life. I felt all the air and feeling leave my body as I saw you gain your wings and leave me. You was suffering and in so much pain but the amazing and strong women you are you kept fighting..you kept going to defeat all objects that stopped you being with us you showed who was the boss. Mum that day I will never forget, I understand you needed to go as you was so tierd of being in pain..your mind and the love of your heart wasn't ready but your body was... Know that I never hold it against you I only wish I could of heard you say you love me one more time and give me our bear cuddles we always had. Mum you was my world, my everything ,my best friend I don't know how I'm going to cope without you as I feel I can't cope now at all. It was too soon too quick I feel no matter how much time it would of never been enough as I wanted you for forever. I love you so much mum.. I hope everything I did was the best it could be for you as all I ever wanted was for you to be happy and comfortable. You was the best mum I could ever have been blessed with, I'm so proud of you and proud to be your daughter you was so strong. I'll never forget all the bear cuddles we used to have, laughing so much at little things, tiggled me to sleep so I would go off ok and sing me out lullaby, reassuring me when I'm down that everything will be okay in the end you made everything okay and I'm so scared to be here without you, you shaped me to be who I am now and I can only hope to be as an amazing women, wife and mother you was. You will always be remembered everyday and every night, I know when I have my children I will make sure they know how amazing, beautiful and loving there grandma was to keep you alive to them. I promise to look after dad for you. I know now your pain free and hugging grandma and grandad so tight right now as that's all you have ever wanted.. Give them a big kiss from me and I'll see you soon. I love you so much mummy your baby girl and always will be EllaLouise ????❤️❤️❤️??

Hi mumsie, just thought i would leave a lil note to say miss you loads and your beautiful smile. Love you x

Spread your wings and fly free my lovely,gloria xx

Lots of love from carolan,Jim,james,Matthew,davina and tony xxx

My beautiful grandma thank you for every time you put a smile on my face. Every time you reminded me I didn't need to face the world alone. Thank you for every time you held my hand and told me it would all be okay. I know I had a hard time showing it but I loved you so much and I pray that you know that. You were a beautiful person inside and out, you always put people before yourself and made everyone around you smile and giggle, you lifted everyone up when they were down and was always up for a chat. I miss you so much and will cherish our memories together. I love you and will hold you forever in my heart.

I love you, I hope you have never forgotten that.

All my love
Your eldest grandbaby
Becky