Clive Nicholas Hayward (8 Apr 1945 - 14 Aug 2013)

Today you should have celebrated another birthday, unfortunately had fate planned it differently.
We think of you and miss you old friend.
Many greetings Joergen and Marion Flensburg

Sorry to hear about the death of Clive a great guy with a big heart.I worked with Clive at Marietta Frozen foods Devizes for about 5 years He was a very funny person to be around and he loved his music too. He introduced me to music by Jon Sekada and had a great talent for spotting early artists ! Simply red ! Gary Barlow ! We shared a few pints together over the years and he always let me know just how much he loved his daughter Alison and was very proud of her and her achievements. He visited us in Wakefield a couple of times and it was always nice to see his smiling face and always called my wife Pammie which always made her laugh. How sad that such a great man has to leave us so early but there will be a special place for him up there in heaven where he can continue telling his funny stories. Love to all his family from Rod Pam and Lucy xxx

Today you should have celebrated another birthday, unfortunately had fate planned it differently.
We think of you and miss you old friend.
Many greetings Joergen and Marion Flensburg

A message of love

It is almost two years now since you went away
To a place free from grief and pain
One where the sun shines and the birds sing
Smiling faces all around
Happiness and peace
A place full of love
Love for those you are with now and
Love for those you have left behind
I can feel your love all around me
Guiding me during many times of uncertainly
I wonder if you can feel the love I send you every day
And if you hear me thanking you for being my loving husband
Such precious memories to treasure and they will last forever

I miss you so much xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Thinking of my very special and unique Dad today, and always.
I know today would have been a great celebration for Dad, always young at heart he would have said
”just another year in life’s rich tapestry” one of his favourite one liners, indeed there were many.
A time for us to celebrate Dad in our hearts and in our memories, as he would have wished.
Happy Birthday Dear Dad with all my love. Alison xx

Today you should have celebrated your birthday ... Miss you old friend.
Jørgen and Marion - Flensburg

It would have been our 18th wedding anniversary this weekend. I remember that special day and the look in your eyes as we exchanged our vows. It still feels like yesterday and my feelings for you remain the same. That day, that love willy remain forever xxx

Thinking of you my love and missing you every day. It's still so hard to accept and I love you today and always will. You are still a big part of my life and I feel you beside me often pushing me on and giving me your support and love from afar. So many memories and so much love xxx

Thinking of you this Christmas my Dear Dad

I often take a moment
When I’m troubled or feeling blue
To simply light a candle
And remember times with you

And in the semi darkness
Amidst the shimmering glow
I feel your presence with me
And somehow I just know

That although I cannot see you
I feel im gently led
To walk along life’s path
But you are just one step ahead.

All my love Alison.

It’s coming up to my second Christmas without you my darling and it seems as difficult if not more so to be facing another festive season without you. Most of our Neighbours have their trees and lights up, competitive as always and I think I will have to join in and make an effort at the weekend. The huge tree you bought will again be lovingly decorated, that alone holds many many memories of you and our Christmas’s together. I will again be struggling through that very lengthy card list, which you seemed to have complete control over and always getting them written in a very timely manner with your usual flair for comments to friends and family. It has been a year of ups and downs and still feels strange walking into the house and you not being there although I feel your presence and know you are not too far away which gives me huge comfort.
Now that winter has set in, our little birds are visiting regularly looking for nuts in the feeders and I have seen the robin several times already, which makes me smile. We spent so much time together watching our little feathered friends and it’s a good feeling when they continue to visit our lovely garden, some things don’t change.
Without you, life is very different and I wish we had managed to at least spend some more precious years together, so much we could have done, I know you would be saying, “go on you can still go and do all those things”, you always had that wonderful enthusiasm and passion for life which was commendable and I wish you could be here to fulfil all of your dreams and hopes.
We were luckier than most which I know I must be thankful for, we had a wonderful home which I still love, saw so much of the world, had very good friends and family and most important of all, we had each other.
You are always in my thoughts and will remain in my heart forever.

Your Lynn xxxxxxxx

Was thinking of you this Morning Dad, as I do every day.
Driving into work the wind was wild and the Autumn leaves were everywhere, I could hear your voice slightly sad as the Summer is now over, the season that you just loved as you were a true worshipper of the Sun and loved getting out and about.
The 2nd Autumn without you here and of course you are missed beyond words, but still very much part of my everyday.
When I think of you the Sun still shines for me and warms my heart. xx

It hardly seems possible that we are one year after losing Dad, in some ways the last year has gone so very quickly yet in other ways it seems like an eternity. One year without hearing an always upbeat and cheerful Dad calling me at work to catch up on the latest news In our lives, or receiving the daily text or email to keep me in the loop. It still seems very unreal, as Dad was such a big part of my life and also a huge influence on the person that I am today.
Since Dad passed away I recognise more than ever how much he is part of me [or I am of him] he is always there and I often catch him looking back at me in my reflection, this is a huge comfort but also still a huge sadness and enormous loss. Dad taught and showed me so much during his life and I am continuing to learn so much from him even now, I feel sure his love and devotion will continue to guide me in the good times and the bad.
The last year has also been full of many First’s. Days, dates and occasions that we have not had his love, input and celebration these have been really tough for me and also Lynn, each one filled with dread, sadness and also loneliness that even the support and loved ones cannot fill.
Many of you will have shared your own special memory of Dad at this delicate time, and I feel sure they will be thoughts and memories of the typical Clive that we knew and loved. This I know is how he would want to be remembered.
This week for me has been full of so many memories; I chose to go to Cornwall as I wanted to be alone and with my own special thoughts and feelings for Dad around the 14th. I also passed through Honiton where Dad and Lynn lived, I know they shared some really special times there and I also know how much Dad loved it.
I spent the day of the 14th at Land’s End and it bought back memories of me being a very tiny girl, Dad had taken me there and at the time I felt like it was the end of the earth, baron and with the wind fierce against the backdrop of the wild and ragged landscape.
However with Dad beside me holding my hand I knew no harm would ever come to me.
We miss you so much Dad but we know that you are not too far away xxxxxxxxxxx

It is so difficult to find words which express my feelings today, one year exactly since my Clive passed away. I have missed him so much this past year and I guess this will continue, all the little things you take for granted in life can be snatched away so quickly and of course so cruelly. Alison and I have shared so much this year, lots of tears but some wonderful memories too which keep us strong as he certainly would have wanted.
There is nothing anyone can do but one thing I try to concentrate on are the words “go on and do all things the same” . It’s all we can do even though sometimes it can be difficult when your heart is still so heavy and the feeling of loss so unbearable at times.
I know that he will always be looking down , and guiding us as he always did, he taught me so much and I know his strength will carry me through somehow. I still try and think on occasions what he would have done in certain situations which I now find myself faced with.
This morning as I visited his special resting place, the sun was out and the birds singing, just as he would have loved it.
My darling, wherever you are I hope you know how much you are loved and missed so very much.
Yours always xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx