Hazel Forbes (20 Oct 1955 - 1 Nov 2022)

I can't believe it's been a year since we lost you. The pain is like it hapoend again today. Words will never be enough to say the pain and heartache we all feel with you not here. We all miss you soo much. Will always love you x

Mum I normally buy you a card that would make you cry with happiness. But today it's all of us that cry for a very different reason. There are no words to say how much we miss you and love you x

It's my first birthday without you tomorrow and I honestly don't know how I'm going to do it. I have tried to live a normal life but inside it hurts me Sooo much it's nearly been a whole year without you and I still hate it everyday. Hate that I don't know why you had to go, what made you have a heart attack anything I still don't understand. I love you sooo much mum and miss you just as much xxx

I haven't wrote anything for a while but I still miss you so blooming much mum it hurts everyday I do something and I instantly think oh I will ring mum and I can't. I wish you were still here so bad. I love you so much and miss you just as much. I hope you are finally at peace I really do and with all the loved ones we lost previously especially dad as I know you really did miss him everyday... Now we all miss you both. Until next time mum love you millions xxx

I miss you mum soooo much, today is Chloe's birthday, Nana's birthday and auntie Mary's and I'm sure.you will be celebrating up there with Nan and with auntie Mary but just know it's not the same without you here and ringing early to catch chlo.before school to sing happy birthday. We all miss you sooo much it hurts. Love.you always and forever xxx

"When no-one else can understand me
When everything I do is wrong
You give me hope and consolation
You give me strength to carry on
And you're always there to lend a hand
In everything I do
That's the wonder
The wonder of you
And when you smile the world is brighter
You touch my hand and I'm a king
Your kiss to me is worth a fortune
Your love for me is everything
I guess I'll never know the reason why
You love me as you do
That's the wonder
The wonder of you"

This song was made for you mum ... It didn't matter what we did or if we cocked up in life we knew you would be there for us. You always were...when you smiled the world was brighter you lit up the room with your presence your smile your kind warm loving heart. Your love for me was everything I could never of asked for a better mum never ever. I love you soooo much and I miss you just as much you have left a massive whole in my heart ❤️💔 I hope your resting with family up there. Love you mumma bear 🐻 goodnight xxxx

4 months today mum without being able to see your beautiful face, without being able to speak to you, have a coffee with you share what we are doing or make more plans and memories with you. And believe me when I say it's no easier everyday I relive the 1st November the way we found you, thinking was there anything else I could of done to help you, to save you trying to make head not tail of all this...to make sense of why you were taken so abruptly so quickly so suddenly and so unexpectedly but I just can't I want to believe you are in a better place and that you are pain free and although knowing your with family that has also passed including dad and you are free from pain comforts me for a little bit it doesn't make it ok! It doesn't make it fine...believe in God believe in everything happens for a reason well I can't do either if god was real why would he take the one person who was always there the one person no matter what the problem would try and help sort it the one person who was my mum the only one I will ever get? The first face I saw that would love me forever and unconditionally? And as for everything happens for a reason I wish somebody would bloody tell me what the reason is for taking a good caring kind loving amazing woman away when there are so many assholes in this world yet live forever? I miss you so much mum and I'm still so angry that there was nothing I could have done or anything the hospital could have done to save you I'm still so angry and hurt and upset that your not here anymore. I'm not angry at you never and not could I ever be just know that I love you so much and I always will forever and ever. I wish this didn't hurt so much but I'm doing what I can be painting a smile on my face and saying I'm ok...I'm not...far from it but I'm trying and as you would of said very trying lol! I love you my beautiful kind amazing mumma and I'm so very proud and honoured to be able to call you that xxxx

I've been thinking about you today mum, our first Christmas without you...it has been by far the worse Christmas ever but we have tried to make it enjoyable for the girls as you would want us too but I have shed so many tears. I love you sooo much and hope that you are partying and celebrating Christmas up with other relatives who are sadly not with us anymore. I miss you so much it hurts. Xxx