Millicent Daisy Anne Payne (4 Aug 2003 - 3 Oct 2020)

There's been to much going on recently millicent grandma moving me turning 18 soon it hurts me to think me that i'm 18 before you you should be 22-23 life just isn't fair and it hurts i hope you know no one has forgotten about you you still make a mark on me which i can't shake off unfortunately you just have that impact but i hope you know we all love you and missing you

Thinking of you a lot today, love you and miss you loads xxxx

Hi beautiful, thank you for the butterflies today. They made us feel extra close to you. We were walking Milo and there you were baby, with us the whole way.

The girlies are going on holiday, you will be with them in spirit I just know it. Don’t worry about your Momma I will be ok.

MAHOOSIVE hugs and kisses in your pockets my baby girl.
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Love you and miss you more than words could ever say xxxxxxxx

Hey gorgeous girl, it as our baby boy Milo’s Birthday yesterday. The Big 5, the love we have had from him is beyond bounds. Our special present from you. He brings us so much joy and is the best present you could have ever bought us. He reminds us of you as he is full of sass and cheekyness (in the best way) and he brightens every single day just as you did baby girl. You were the glue that held us together and life has never been the same since you gained your Angel Wings. Not a single day, minute, hour goes by that I don’t miss you, that I don’t think of you. What I would do to have you back with us!!!! Life would be complete again.

I hope you are happy my beautiful girl, I hope you are lighting up heaven with your beautiful personality and I hope you are loved, just as I love you, and your sisters too.

Sending you my hugs, my kisses and my love my precious, beautiful Little Stuff

Hold onto my kisses in your pockets baby

Your Momma xxxxx

I love you my angel, with all my heart, always and forever!!!

I hope you are doing ok up there in Heaven.

I miss you more than words can say!!

My baby girl, my little stuff, my Moo xxxxxx

Hey millicent I have just been thinking of you recently it's been long but I don't act like it to my parents I act rude to them and I hate myself for it and I feel like a Horrid person after I'm rude I miss you so much and I don't know how to get over it's been so long but so short anyway

Hey Gorj, thinking about you lots today. We’ve just had Eleanor’s 26th Birthday. Your big sis is getting old. We both talked about your last one with us celebrating Eleanor’s birthday. You looks so beautiful but were so poorly and couldn’t eat. We have so many memories, some not so good but we try to remember the good ones. You were so poorly for so long though it’s hard.

We have another new year passing to, I hate them as it’s another year that you haven’t lived in with us, that hits hard and seems so unfair. The ding of the New Years bells is a dread, but I will be with your Eleanor. We will spend it together with imogen with her boyfriend this year. It would be lovely to have us all together but that never happens. You will be with us baby, in our thoughts and I hope you will be partying up in heaven with all your friends.

I love you my angel, with all my heart xxxc

Hi there my gorgeous girl, another year, another Christmas has passed without you. Even though it’s 4 years since we lost you, it’s the 5th Christmas without you. How we’ve coped so long not seeing your beautiful face, your beautiful smile, not hearing your beautiful voice I just don’t know. It doesn’t seem fair, it is cruel and we miss you baby. More than words could ever say. We were talking about you on Christmas Day, wondering what you would look like now, what kind of woman you would be. We still see you as the teenager you were and find it hard to imagine you as a woman. But we would love to see you now as a 21 year old. No doubt gorgeous, beautiful and full of sass. We’d take pride in you and all that you are! We love you baby, with all our hearts, with every breath we have. Never forget that and how proud you were are, of the inspiration you are, and will always will be.

Sending you kisses in your pockets my lil stuff. I love you, I adore you and love you forever!!!!!

Your Momma xxxxxx

Merry Christmas Angel xx we are all thinking of u, especially today xx I hope (and I’m sure u are!!) partying like a good un up there no doubt showing all the other angels how it’s done xx keep shining bright sweetheart xx

Hey beautiful xx just wanted to say hi xx thinking of u lots xx we’re all good down here xx Charlie had his prom last week….he looked sooo handsome!!! Still a cheeky lil bugger xx but we wouldn’t have him any other way xx he misses u soooooo much x we all do xx Charlie still had ur ur ‘squishy’ and Alfie. We miss u moo

Hey my precious girl, another Christmas has been and gone. Our 4th without you and I think it gets worse, not easier as so many say. I’ve found it particularly hard this year, I’ve lacked motivation to be in the spirit and to get presents. But I pulled it off, somehow. I don’t know how. I feel so sad without you. It doesn’t feel ok to do all the things we have to do without you. And I know you would want me to be ok. But I miss you my lil stuff, with every breath I have. I didn’t want you to leave me, I wasn’t ready to let you go and I struggle without you, there are days I can’t hear your laugh as I try so hard but then it comes back. And it makes me smile. You made me smile always, you were the most wonderful daughter, sister, friend etc and an all round good egg. Even though I have a huge void in my life I use your inspiration to live mine as best I can,

You are loved by so many. Remembered by so many and admired for the brave beautiful young lady you are. We keep your memory alive! Keep walking by my side, being my Guardian Angel because n need that. Sending kisses for your pockets, your very proud Momma. Love and hugs from your sisters and Milo xxxxx

Hey Gorj, oh my how I miss you calling me that. It made my heart smile. You made my heart smile by beautiful girl. It was 3 years of not having you by my side on the 3rd Oct. What a painful day that was. I couldn’t even write on here, the day passed with a blur but of course we had ‘Domino’s Baby’!!! Eleanor just had to have your fav, and me our chicken one we’d share. Life is so empty without you, so quiet, so sad, it’s just not right. You should be here living your best life. Living your dreams, not taken from me by that ##%%#*# cancer. I love you with all my heart, to the moon and back, and back, and back, and back. Always and forever my precious girl. Please look out for me and love me back!!!! I have to believe you watch over me or I couldn’t cope with life. That you are by my side guiding me through this tough life that I have no choice but to live without you!!!

3 years of missing you sweetheart……you are forever in our hearts Moo xx rest easy baby xx

Hey baby girl, how’s you? I’m missing you, moreso just lately as we’ve celebrated your 20th Birthday. But I can’t imagine you as a beautiful 20 year old, life seemed to stop for us when you were diagnosed at 15. It was just turn hospitals, blood transfusions, platelet transfusions, chemo, radiotherapy and so much more. Turn the final Surgery, and still we didn’t survive it. So yes 15 ish is where you stay in my mind. Yet now you’d be giving me trouble getting drunk etc 😂 oh how I wish that could happen. It all seems so unfair. Everyone moves on, or that’s how it seems. Yet I don’t!!!! My life has a void without you and no matter what I can’t fill that baby. Of course I carry on, I go to work, do what is needed of me but my heart is so broken it now misses a beat without you and always will. I love you my precious Angel, with all my heart. Never forget me, keep sending your Momma those feathers and rainbows, they keep me going. If only I could have one more stand up cuddle. Speak soon princess, your momma xxxxx

Hi millicent charlie here I was just sitting g her thinking of you even thought it has been nearly three years I'm Still thinking of you and I want you to know I will never forget you love charlie

Hey baby girl, here I am awake again. Gosh I wish I could sleep but it’s just a nightmare. I have such crazy thoughts going through my head at night and it makes me have panic attacks, with me struggling to sleep. I remember the days you slept with me, that was fab. My little mate, I think we helped each other. What I would give to have you by my side now. Us having a chat and me listening to that laugh. That would settle me I have no doubt. I miss you baby, so much I just can’t say. It’s my birthday very soon and it’s another one without you. That’s pants, although your sisters do you proud and look after me. Sending my love and hugs to you. You are always in my thoughts baby girl. I adore you I do xxxx

Morning baby girl, I had an early morning walk today with Milo and saw a Robin. That made me think of you, as I do believe ‘when robins appear, a loved one is near’. Were you coming on our walk with us. I hope so and I hope the chats I have with you on our walks, you can hear. I love playing our song too, Somewhere Over the Rainbow’. It makes me so sad but it also reminds me of happy times, us at the hospital and you singing it to me while rubbing my hair. It will always be special. Just wanted to wish you a Happy New Year too baby. We are with Auntie Teen, Uncle Matt and the boys. They are spoiling us rotten. Such a shame you aren’t here in person, you’d no doubt be on the jaeger bombs too, lol. Loves ya baby girl, to the moon and back, and back and back and back!!!!! Hugs from your momma xxxx

Happy new year beautiful xx shine bright xx sleep easy darling xx Aunty teen misses u soooo much xxx