Where do you start when you’ve lost your big brother, to say we are all lost is an understatement.
My brother was the person I’d go to growing up if any of the older boys was picking on me, he was the one I’ve always gone to, we’ve had quiet conversations over the years, those words I’ll hold close forever. He was a gentle giant unless you crossed someone he loved. And I truly loved that about him, no matter what I always had my big bro to go to if all else fails, and I did quite a few times.
I’ve had the pleasure of living with Paul and Ali, I was only a teenager but even then, the love between them was so clear, those months I loved, and again will never forget. He’d turn up at night in a bloody great coach and just park it anywhere, he didn’t care one bit. The days out in the coach, just me and him, was hilarious, if he could make someone jump while driving believe me, he would. I still to this day cannot tell one story without laughing. He was a prankster but not planned, just random things that was so funny. I was envious of him with the way he didn’t care what people thought of him, he just went through life as he chose.
Out of all the people who went to see mum in her last days, Paul was the one that she smiled at, and she truly lit up for a few seconds. She really did love her boy, that’s one thing I’m pleased about, they are together again ♥️
Ali. I want to take this opportunity to thank you from the bottom of my heart for the care you gave my brother, he truly wanted for nothing, he had 24/7 care in any way she could give it. You didn’t fail him by not being there in those final moments, he would never have let you be there, he loved you too much for that to be a memory of him. I know for a fact he waited. You haven’t failed him or yourself, I am amazingly proud of what you did for him, and you should be too, not many get the care you gave.
To all of the family in Nottingham, his children, grandchildren and great grandchildren my thoughts, love and prayers are with you. The love for him shines through, I hope he knows how loved he was, because it’s so clear.
It’s never goodbye bro, it’s until we meet again.
Come see me from time to time, and look after mum for me. Love you always ♥️
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